grandma drank champagne

i’ve been pretty busy lately,
my mom got married (#2)
that was an interesting experience
she confided in me on the way to the church
that they almost called it off 2 days before
i didn’t say much to comfort her
it wasnt’ anything serious, just worrying
about the wedding cost because people
started inviting themselves
big deal i thought, but i was also mad at her
this guy has been with her for over 6 years
he’s really great and i have considered him
my stepdad for the last 4 or 5 years
i never considered that he wasn’t part of my family
then he almost wasn’t…
the wedding went well
it was beautiful outside
i wore a dress and makeup
which i haven’t done since…well never both at once
i don’t like getting all girly because people
make such a big deal out of it, i hate all the attention
only one person noticed my scars thought i must
have wrecked a dirt bike in the thorn bushes
my mom called me last night to tell me again
how great i looked
and for some reason thought i’d feel a lot better
about wearing a dress to know that my oldest
brother told her he thought i looked beautiful….
way to ruin a good thing mom
i called “annie” to say hi
i couldn’t help but grin ear to ear when i heard her voice
even if it was a voicemail recording
i haven’t heard it in probably a year
she called me back about an hour later
…oh that ringtone
makes my heart jump out of my chest
i don’t even know what we said
i was too happy to really care

~ by sagelfn on April 8, 2008.